You are loved.

Yesterday as I was taking the journey back to lovely St. George after a nice long christmas break, I really had to go to the bathroom but I was so hesitant because I hate stopping. But I decided I better. So I quickly ran in and probably looked pretty rushed. As I was walking out an older man was walking in and was holding the door open and I quickly said thanks and he said, "if you don't mind me saying this I just want you to know you're shockingly beautiful."

Instantly I thought, K. He was only trying to be nice. Didn't he see this huge zit on my lip? If not he at least had to of seen the one on my forehead. My hair looks so gross. Obviously he doesn't really think that.

And then I had a long drive to think and like normal my mind didn't stop thinking. (Literally never and it can get pretty annoying.) but the whole rest of the drive I kept knocking myself down. Ew why are my legs so fat when I sit down? Oh man these rolls on my stomach are getting out of control. I should probably cut my hair it's completely dead. I wonder why I'm breaking out so bad. Ah I'm getting so white I need summer to come. 

and that's when I realized. 

You are your worst critic. And it's true that what you put out, is what you recieve. If I'm constantly knocking myself down and putting out these negative things about me than that is all other people are going to notice. For one of my resolutions this year I decided I'm going to love my physical appearance more. As dumb as that sounds it's probably the most important love a person can contain. And once you establish the love you have for yourself, other people will pick up on that and love you even more.

Everyone has their flaws, and I promise no one on this earth is perfect. It's hard because in this generation everyone is so jealous of other people's life because on social media they make it seem so perfect. But no one realizes the struggles and hardships people go through every single day. 

As I was I was scrolling through pinterest last night I scrolled past a quote that says, "Exist to be happy, not to impress." That hit home so hard. That should be so easy and not something you should have to be reminded of, but unfortuantely, is. Right now most people around my age are making big life decsions. Some are going on missions. Some are getting married. Some are going to school. Some are having kids. And some are just trying to make it through the day. Not one of those things are right or wrong. You never have to jusitfy the things you are doing, because in the end it is your life and your happiness.

I just wish everyone could see the beauty and potential you conatin. happy sabbath.